Tuesday, September 30, 2008

Looking back

















Do you ever read things you wrote a while ago and wonder how you actually wrote that? Like, did I really think those thoughts? I must have cuz I mean, I'm reading it. But did I really write that? For example, I just randomly clicked on this post from a year ago. Did I really write that? I can understand why I would have. I'm glad that I read it today. Because as most of you who really know me know, I had a terrible day today. I could put any number of words in the place of "terrible", but since I don't use those kinds of words, I won't. It was REALLY bad. And now I read what I wrote last year about those kids, who I though were incredibly hard and scary, and I see how true it is. I am there at this school to share Jesus and His love with them. Even if I have to be stinkin' mean and make their lives miserable. In the midst of it all, I can share Jesus' love with them. Maybe I'll have another Dela in this crowd. I sure hope so. Cuz I really need something good and uplifting like that to keep me going...

Thursday, September 25, 2008

When my faith wavers....

When there is something that I can't see how God is going to take care of (like my lack of job the past few months or any number of other things), there is a new verse that I will be going to.

No distrust made him (Abraham) waver concerning the promise of God (that he'd be the father of a nation), but he grew strong in his faith as he gave glory to God, fully convinced that God was able to do what he had promised. That is why his faith was "counted to him as righteousness."
Romans 4:20-22

Abraham was waiting to father a son or sons that would become a nation, at 100yrs old with a barren wife. My problems seem so small next to that. Now if I could just remember this when the time of despair comes again... :)

Wednesday, September 24, 2008

Happy Wednesday

For there is no distinction; for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God, and are justified by his grace as a gift, through the redemption that is in Christ Jesus, whom God put forward as a propitiation by his blood, to be received by faith. This was to show God's righteousness, because in his divine forbearance he had passed over former sins. It was to show his righteousness a the present time, so that he might be just and the justifier of the one who has faith in Jesus.
Romans 3: 22b-26

Jesus, thank you for your gift of grace. For being my propitiation. That I can receive you by faith. Thank you that you paid for my sins. Even though I deserve nothing at all. You are the Way, You are the Truth, You are the Life Jesus! Thank you!!

On that note, have an excellent humpday!

Thursday, September 18, 2008

The picture in my family room

I was working on my computer, just about to look up some info on teaching The Lion, the Witch and the Wardrobe in my class, when I look up to see.....(if I only had a camera it would be perfect)

My mom reading Ms. Amy's diet book while eating a bowl of ice cream with chocolate chips

It made me laugh so hard I cried. And she said she's reading a chapter called "Why America Can't Get Thin" hahaha

I love my mom!!!!!

Wednesday, September 17, 2008

I'm hangin' in there


God is good! He has given me a wonderful job. He has provided for my needs in an amazing way. And He is giving me the strength to get through the first few weeks of school. It's been an amazing challenge. But I told my principal I was up for a challenge. God heard me loud and clear....and He didn't disappoint. My kids are tough. But they are what God has given me to mold and teach this year. I am encouraged even in light of this uphill battle because God gave this challenge to me. And He promises not to give me more than I can handle. He is there to bear my burden every day...to make it lighter. I'm all for a lighter load!

On the Girltalk blog yesterday, Carolyn reminded us to keep singing. I haven't been singing as much as I normally do. I'm working on singing more. You should too...it makes your heart so happy and it brings praise and honor to Jesus. Try to sing!!!

Monday, September 15, 2008

Wednesday, September 10, 2008

Surviving

I'm surviving. One of the other teachers at school stopped me to tell me she was blessed when I replied to the principals query of how my lesson plans were coming by saying, "I'm working on it." What else could I say? haha That's it! It really is extremely overwhelming. All the work I have to do. But I keep thinking--if God gave me this job, He can definitely get me through the first few weeks of it and the rest of the year too. So as I stress out, I fall back on the fact that Jesus is there to fall on. Comfort and reason to keep on surviving.

Thursday, September 4, 2008

How it went....

Yesterday was the first day of school. Wow! By the end of the day, I felt like a totally incompetent teacher. I couldn't figure out why the heck I decided to be a teacher. I obviously couldn't do it. The kids talked all day long. I was through most of my plans for the day by 10 am. The kids told me it was BORING at the end of the day. What kind of newly college educated teacher has a boring first day???? How embarrassing!

And then I sat down to figure out what went wrong. First of all, they were all sitting by their friends. And in fact, when sitting by one's friends, one can't help but talk. Hence, the loud classroom. Actually, when one girl answered the question of what she does best with the word talking, I knew I was in for a long day. It was true...

So I moved all their desks around before I went home......

And then I was thinking about the day in the shower this morning. (A professor in college told us we should be thinking and probably would be thinking about our class all day and all night long. I didn't believe her at the time. She was right.....) I realized that the principal and her assistant actually really like me. And they actually really want to help me. And they actually really understand what I bind I'm in. And it's not even close to being my fault that I'm not ready or planned for the year. I'm glad they know it well, cuz I'm just figuring it out. So I resolved to call the office for help if I needed it today. No guilt attached.

So I walked in to school today feeling a little more confident than I did when I left last night. Started out the day with PE. Walked them to the classroom and-------their new seat assignments! Holy cow! My plan worked. They were quiet today! They worked hard today! They were sooooooo good today! I'm soooo happy!!!!!! I didn't even have to call the office. :)

The principal's assistant came to my room after school to help me with curriculum stuff. And I realized---I'm in a wonderful place!

Tuesday, September 2, 2008

First day

Tomorrow is the first day of school. I am not quite ready for it all. But we'll see how it goes. It'll be fun!

I have my room all decorated and stuff. I just have to finish the planning. We'll do the normal first day of school stuff and see how it goes. I'll let you know........