Saturday, May 31, 2008
Monday, May 26, 2008
But now as I sit here contemplating the coming week, I am anxious about my future. Is there a job for me in California? Is it what I'm hoping for or something totally different like I got this year? Or the question always close to my heart...will I get married ever? This is what I'm looking at. A wedding in two weeks that I play piano for...a wedding in October that I'm in...a wedding in January that I'm in. A friend who just got a job in a different state. A newspaper article that says that there are no jobs in California and it's pretty much a hopeless cause. So the anxiousness and restlessness sets in. But what does that show? That I am not trusting in God. That I am not giving Him full control of the life He is sustaining in me. That I am trying to take hold of the things that He is sovereign over. I don't know what I'm going to do for next year. And that thought really scares me. My ultimate desire would be to stay at home with my five kids and take care of my husband. But I have been told multiple times that I just need to be happy with where I am now. So when you read this, if it be within 5 minutes of me writing this or 6 months of me writing it, can I humbly ask you to pray for me. Pray that I will stand and listen to His call...that I don't run off and take my life by the reigns and try to drive it where I will. Oh Lord, give me a quiet heart before you.
Friday, May 23, 2008
Sunday, May 18, 2008
10. Nacho Libre "my life is good..."
9. 13 going on 30 so sweet!
8. It's a Mad, Mad, Mad, Mad World. hahahahahaha
7. While You Were Sleeping I love the part where the kid throws the newspaper and falls off his bike...so random!!
6. Sahara so cool!
5. Cinderella she's my favorite
4. Pride and Prejudice--the 5 hr. version...girls night!!!
3. Anne of Green Gables/Anne of Avonlea--love it love it...and according to Joni you can find it in Japan to rent!!
2. Princess Bride--anybody want a peanut?
1. The Wedding Planner---The best movie ever!!!!!
Saturday, May 10, 2008
Over at Girltalk, they have been writing tributes to grandmothers for Mother's Day. I thought I'd write one for my Grandma here to share with you.
Betty Ann Baldwin
My Gram was born the 5th child of Yugoslavian immigrants. There was a 10 year gap between her and the rest of the kids in her family. So by the time she was 6 or 7, her oldest brothers had already moved out and were on their own. She pretty much raised herself. Her mother was not too interested in raising her...she had already raised the other four. Grandma, therefore, pretty much grew up on her own.
She met my grandpa when she was about 20. They met on a blind date. She ended up marrying him and before long she had her first son, my dad. Within the next 6 years, she had 4 more kids. She worked tirelessly to raise them well. My grandpa was not saved when she married him, but she did her best to take the kids to church as much as possible and prayed for them to grow to love the Lord. Grandpa was not an easy person to live with, but she served him and took care of him and loved him no matter what. He finally got saved more than 20 years after she married him.
My grandma loves to work with her hands. She loves making tea and all the things that go with it. You can't go over to her house without her trying to feed you...and she's a great cook too. Her garden is always full of beautiful flowers and she love arranging them into beautiful bouquets. She made me and my siblings and cousins dresses for Easter and Christmas every year while we were growing up. She is a quilter and a good one at that. She crochets and embroiders too. Her sewing room is amazing. Anytime I ever needed a new dress, I knew I could count on her.
Grandma also loves people. Wherever you go, she is talking to people around her, finding out about them and their lives. She has worked at the local elementary school for over 40 years. People all over the South Bay know my grandma from that school. In fact, they all call her Grandma. I used to get jealous when people called her that because she was MY grandma, not theirs. She has spent countless hours teaching my sisters and I the wonderful wealth of cooking, sewing and hospitality knowledge that she has. She is a true example of a godly woman.
But most importantly, my Grandma loves Jesus. Her one great prayer and desire is that all of her grandchildren will come to know Jesus. Most of us do know Him, but not all of us. But she is confident that we all will, because that is her prayer. She has lived a hard life. She has been through a lot of things. And she will always tell you that Jesus has stood with her through it all. He is her best friend.
I hope that in some small way, I can be like my Gram when I grow up. I love her to pieces and I thank God for the legacy that He has given me. He has provided for me the most wonderful example to follow. My dear sweet Gram.
Tuesday, May 6, 2008
Monday, May 5, 2008
I have a fascination with Prince Edward Island, Canada. This probably has to do with my fascination with Anne of Green Gables and pretty much anything else written by L.M. Montgomery. I love the watching the movies because the scenery is so beautiful (the white-way of delight, the sand dunes). I love reading the books because she fills rooms with bowers of blossoms to decorate them just like I wish I could. And she is a teacher...and that is just wonderful! Well the other day I was looking around on line, and I found the place I want to go visit. I could live like Anne for a little while. Be on her island and see her ocean. It would be so lovely and so beautiful. Maybe someday I'll go...to the Hillhurst Inn. Doesn't it just sound like something from the books?
Saturday, May 3, 2008
1. Sleeping in
2. Job 23:10-12
3. My student telling me she can come to church tomorrow with me
4. Driving around town in my car with the sunroof open and windows down
5. Keith and Kristyn Getty's CD "In Christ Alone" that I bought yesterday
6. White tulips on my piano
7. Playing with all the little kids that came over for the BBQ today
8. Spending time with my dad
9. Getting 4 more applications done--Redondo Beach, Manhattan Beach, Downey, ABC
10. Finding out my friend moved up from just a blog to a full-blown website...I'm impressed!!!
11. Knowing Jesus died for me because He loved me....wow!!
Friday, May 2, 2008
"Jesus, I My Cross Have Taken"
by Henry Francis Lyte, 1793-1847
1. Jesus, I my cross have taken,
All to leave and follow Thee;
Destitute, despised, forsaken,
Thou from hence my All shalt be.
Perish every fond ambition,
All I've sought or hoped or known;
Yet how rich is my condition!
God and heaven are still my own.
2. Let the world despise and leave me,
They have left my Savior, too.
Human hearts and looks deceive me;
Thou art not, like them, untrue.
And while Thou shalt smile upon me,
God of wisdom, love, and might,
Foes may hate and friends may shun me;
Show Thy face, and all is bright.
3. Go, then, earthly fame and treasure!
Come, disaster, scorn, and pain!
In Thy service, pain is pleasure;
With Thy favor, loss is gain.
I have called Thee Abba, Father!
I have stayed my heart on Thee.
Storms may howl, and clouds may gather,
All must work for good to me.
4. Man may trouble and distress me,
'Twill but drive me to Thy breast;
Life with trials hard may press me,
Heaven will bring me sweeter rest.
Oh, 'tis not in grief to harm me
While Thy love is left to me;
Oh, 'twere not in joy to charm me
Were that joy unmixed with Thee.
5. Take, my soul, thy full salvation;
Rise o'er sin and fear and care;
Joy to find in every station,
Something still to do or bear.
Think what Spirit dwells within thee,
What a Father's smile is thine,
What a Savior died to win thee;
Child of heaven, shouldst thou repine?
6. Haste, then, on from grace to glory,
Armed by faith and winged by prayer;
Heaven's eternal day's before thee,
God's own hand shall guide thee there.
Soon shall close the earthly mission,
Swift shall pass thy pilgrim days,
Hope soon change to glad fruition,
Faith to sight, and prayer to praise.
Text: Luke 18:28
Author: Henry Francis Lyte, 1824
Composer: Rowland H. Prichard, 1855, alt.
I have a class that won't obey. I have given them specific instructions that are to be followed at a certain time every day and they will not follow those instructions. No matter what I do. I even give out candy (the cardinal sin of teachers, yet a necessary one) to those who once in a while do obey in hopes of sparking some kind of desire to follow directions all the time. It doesn't work. And then there's the constant talking and lecturing from me that follows every time they don't do what I asked them to do. It goes something like this...
How many times do I have to tell you to sit here and be quite while you wait for me. It is not that hard. I have told you time and time again and every time you choose to talk to each other while you sit here, you are disrespecting me and you are disobeying me. I can't believe that I just talked to you about this 2 days ago and you are back to where we started...
and on and on I go. But this last time, while I was lecturing, I listened to what I was saying. Especially that last sentence. "I can't believe that I just talked to you about this 2 days ago and you are back to where we started." And while standing there in the hall, I could see myself standing before God listening to Him say the same thing. "How many times have we gone over this, and you are still in that sin. How many times do I have to tell you?" I don't know about you, but I sin all the time and it's usually the same things over and over again. The same struggles, the same falling into temptation.
The big difference between me as a teacher with my students and God with me is that God is so forgiving. He has forgiven every fall. He has died for every mess-up. Why? I am so unworthy. It's all because of love. He loves me enough to see past the iniquity teeming in my heart to see a sinner that is somehow worth saving. I don't understand it. I don't deserve it. But how thankful I am for it!!
So today, when I go out into the hall and my class is yet again disobeying me (for I have absolutely NO doubt that they will disobey me), I need to see them in the light that God sees me. I need to love them.